cauldroness ([info]cauldroness) wrote,
@ 2009-01-22 23:48:00
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Is this my song?
I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok
I just want to be ok today
I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok
I just want to be ok today



I just want to feel today, feel today, feel today
I just want to feel something today
I just want to feel today, feel today, feel today
I just want to feel something today

[CHORUS:]
Open me up and you will see
I'm a gallery of broken hearts
I'm beyond repair, let me be
And give me back my broken parts

I just want to know today, know today, know today
I just want to know something today
I just want to know today, know today, know today
Know that maybe I will be ok

[CHORUS]

Just give me back my pieces
Just give them back to me please
Just give me back my pieces
And let me hold my broken parts

I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok
I just want to be ok today
I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok
I just want to be ok today

I just want to feel today, feel today, feel today
I just want to feel something today
I just want to know today, know today, know today
Know that maybe I will be ok
Know that maybe I will be ok
Know that maybe I will be ok



I'm about half-way through The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath.

Still on my book list are Who's Afraid of Virginia Woolf?, and then Virginia Woolf's own A Room of One's Own, in addition to Where the Girls Are: Growing Up Female with the Mass Media and The Second Sex. Don't despair, though, my reading list isn't entirely feminist works: despite my hatred of John Steinbeck, I have The Grapes of Wrath on my list, as well as There Are No Children Here, The Hot Zone, and Bad Blood: The Tuskegee Syphilis Experiment.

It's strange, how my tastes have changed. I have trouble remembering the last sci-fi/fantasy book I read... perhaps Dead After Dark which, despite how much I like True Blood, was a bit of a disappointment. Maybe I'll read the next book in the series after the next season of True Blood is finished (Fall 2009?). I don't know what happened; I simply do not want to read about overcoming that Great Evil (TM) or meeting one's True Love (c). I can't believe it anymore; my mind screams "This isn't true, this is all false, all wrong!" with each page. I want truth. I want ugly, petty, unfair, tangled truth, with all its unhappy endings and unfinished stories.

Maybe it's because I think it -- and, perhaps, I -- won't be okay?

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[info]dark_skada
2009-01-23 07:36 am UTC (link)
I really had a hard time with The Bell Jar when I read it. But I have a feeling it was my choice of timing. I had just gotten out of the mental hospital myself.

And Virginia Wollf = win. I went to Mary Baldwin College, which is where she went! She's kinda a big hero there.

The last sci-fi/fantasy book I read (excluding comic books and RP books as I am trying to learn 4th edition backwards and forwards) was actually Dead After Dark! I'm super amused. I only got to watch the first 7 episodes of True Blood. Then we moved and lacked friends with HBO xD

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[info]cauldroness
2009-01-26 12:26 am UTC (link)
I just finished The Bell Jar last night, I thought it was really interesting. I didn't always connect with the character, but I could still understand that spiral down into darkness.

I picked up A Room of One's Own today, it will be next. I figure I'll read it, then follow it with Who's Afraid of Virginia Woolf? just so I can have everything in the proper order.

You should watch the rest of True Blood, I think the 2nd half of the show is even better than the first. I think the DVDs come out in May?

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[info]dark_skada
2009-01-26 03:18 am UTC (link)
I will probably get the DVDs. Just because I have friends who have read all the books and haven't seen any of the show. I would have read more of the books by my library doesn't carry the Living Dead in Dallas. Which is stupid because I happen to be living (alive) in Dallas. And I don't see the point of owning a single book of the series, and I don't want to have to pay for all them @____@;;

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[info]herroyaldemones
2009-01-23 09:47 pm UTC (link)
If you're in to documentaries, there's a really good one out there on the Tuskegee Syphilis Experiment that I think might be inspired by that book? Anyways, they interviewed all the survivors and even one of the doctors...it's really good (sad, of course, but moving).

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[info]cauldroness
2009-01-26 12:27 am UTC (link)
Hmmm, maybe! I'm not as much of a watcher as I am a reader. If, after the book, I feel like I still need to tackle more into the subject, I'll look for the documentary. Thanks for the suggestion!

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